Rambling Thoughts…

In my previous blog I was pretty upset and now that I have had enough time to process what I feel and think about it and come to this conclusion, sure my personal life was and probaly still talked about…way to much drama. I love all my friends and am still am thnakful for everyone of them I know I need to talk to some of them indivdualy to convey how I feel and what is on my heart and I have done so already. I just dont want to miss out on being able to spend time with someone becuase I have a wall of friends trying to look out for me and interjecting what they see to everyone else or that person becuase I may end up being more hurt than if they would have come to me personaly. I know I do not talk much about how I feel about someone becuse it is for me and that person and that is where it should be. God is good and he is faithful, I dunno what will come out of it but I know it is for His perfect plan and I know and hope that it will be amazing, I know I do not want to end up being alone but i have apart of myself and heart that I want to share with someone and I hope I get that chance to….

I am a little mad right now because I have recently found out how much of my personal life has become a Spectecal or the topic of way to many peoples conversation. As a result of this it has had a negative impact on me. Too many people involved…To many know. Now it is going to be hard to recover from this. It is just interesting to me, I am sure that intentions were good, but I mean come on really if you want to know something about me or what is going on you just need to come to me not everyone else. Now I feel as if I am untouchable and unreachable, that if anyone wants in they have to go through this wall of people who sure yes love me and care about me but just because intentions are good does not mean that is what is best for me. It is weird cause it feels like I have been sabotaged, I am not sayin I have lost but just….Defeated. God is faithful and I know that his perfect plan will be shown through all this. I just have to continue to pray and seek guidance through this time.

Ok so I just have to say how thankful I am. I have such an amazing group of friends who always seem to be there for me at just the right time to encourage and make me laugh. I love it. Everyday I begin to see how God a put certain people in my life, when times get tuff, or are blah, or even when times are great. I am not sure what God has in store for me next but I am sure it will be pretty sweet. I just hope that I am a good freind back to all who have been there for me, I dont know what life would be like without them but it would probaly not as good.

Well I am begining to slowy convert over to the wonderful wacky world that google has to offer. It is not hard it just seems to make sense. Everying in one place..keep it simple or is that just a state of mind…ah whatever. Well I do not have much time to give you some random thoughts and ramblings so for now I bid you adue or however you spell it…since this is my place that is how you spell it, stay classy world wide web.